believe in well wishers
Thursday 19 March 2009
This is a mobile post. Had to be really since i've lost access to the net and anything else upstairs thanks to my new complication Sciatica. (you'll have to google it to find out what it is, i can't link from my mobile. )
I ain't gonna describe the pain since it's horrendous- suddenly the sacroiliitis feels like a walk in the park.
But this isn't a post about the pain. It's a post about something i learnt while i've been here. Turns out that along with all the lovely folk who stop by and read this blog, i also get visited by "old foes". And they've been gloating about my present condition and how their "prayers" are being answered. (who/what they're praying too/for is a different story, apparently. ) I guess i just find it pitiable that some people refuse to let the past stop haunting them, choosing instead to "win" at any cost. And their victory, it turns out, is in my demise or some crap. Sigh. Sorry beeyaches, still alive.
Grow up, really. Live a life instead of behaving like spoilt brats who need to have the last word in to feel important in life !
What is instead heartening is finding out how many people from the past responded to the news of my condition. Friends from school ( the ever charismatic Thanni, blogrolled as Nithin T ) dropped by from his busy schedules. Collegemates took time off from their pg life,36 hour shifts and maternal duties to come visit. They've even taken time out from their own wedding to spare a thought. Calls have come in from Pune, Jharkand, Rajastan, Mang/Bangalore,Chennai,Trivandrum,Hyderabad, Delhi, from across the continent and beyond. Long lost relatives have gone way beyond the means needed to make me feel better, be it holistic or moral support.
What it has done is really give me a positive feeling. When people take the time out to care for you, you know you've done something right in your life. You know that with so many people praying for you and having you in their thoughts, the big Guy'll listen to them. I know because ( as i've repeated oft ) i believe he/she listens when you pray for someone else rather than yourself.
I've seen it work personally so many times even in recent years - when praying for a loved one to get married, when praying for the safety and wellbeing of an unborn child, when praying for a friend to deliver normally after having suffered a miscarriage earlier, when praying for a guy to get a pg seat. Darn thing really works.
As of now, i'm in an acute state of pain physically. Truth be told, it's worse than bamboo shoots up your fingernails and yes, even worse than tying me up and tickling my feet with ostrich feathers. But i have to say this too- i'm at peace mentally. There is just a belief that this's gonna end well and that the ill wishes/prayers of a few rich in the wallet will be trumped by the good wishes/thoughts of a lot of people rich at heart. Of course, now would be a nice time to also hope that the principle of that self help book "THE SECRET" is true. You know, the one where if " certain people" keep thinking negative thoughts, only negative things will happen to them. Hehe.
In the end, it's like that old song from the Wonder Years theme-
"I get by with a little help from my friends."
I really do. In hindsight, I find, I always have.












